What do you mean I have defects?

UB, you are so right when you said house hunting is a huge stressor. The way the market is right now, it is causing mega stress. Along with that have been feelings of anxiety, frustration, anger, sadness, depression, jubilation, excitement and around and around. I'm a first time home buyer. I've never lived in a house before, except when I was too young to remember. So, I have these dreams to be in my first home and stop renting. It doesn't have to be a big house, just a starter will do. But, the market has brought out vultures, greediness and people taking advantage. That means it's very tough go for a person like me. I'm competing with many people. I've wanted to bid on houses, but when my realtor contacted the listing agent, there have been times when 57 offers have been received, on one piece of crap property, let alone something nice. How am I to compete?

Meanwhile, my character defects that I have hung onto, even in little spurts, are presenting themselves. What, me, impatient? Never! I know, the people who know me in real life are laughing. Yes, Sunny is an impatient girl. I went to an OA meeting yesterday and the topic was the Seventh Step: Humbly asked God to remove all our defects of character. I laughed when I heard the topic. Of course God is working in my life, in all ways. Through all of this, I have been praying, asking God to grant me patience and peace, to show me His will and help me to align with it. If I don't get a property, it's because God has a different plan for me. The bottom line is God knows my name, He knows what is in my heart and He knows I am faithful.

Prayer gives me such peace. And when I get in the craziness again, all I have to do is stop and close my eyes, invite Him into my heart. Amazingly the peace comes again. I am putting in another offer, along with the other three I have out there on properties, and will keep trekking onward, always asking God to lead me. In the meantime, I will continue asking God, with all the humbleness in my heart, to help me with these defects of character that no longer serve a useful purpose for me. The truth is, I have such joy in my life today. I mean, imagine me, the worst of them in all (at least that's how I view myself when I'm in my disease) in the position to buy a house. How great is God???