This is me

Another beautiful day here in San Diego. We may pay through the nose to live here, but it simply is breathtaking. The beautiful ocean breezes, the sun shining on my face, the birds chirping in the air. It makes me feel so good. Just taking a deep breath and letting my entire body feel it is so peaceful. I don't know about you, but I strive for that feeling of peace in my life. My day yesterday, as I posted previously, was a rough one. I feel like I am on the verge of a new level in my recovery process. Yes, I was hurt with the whole sponsor thing. The day before that I was affected by seeing someone who was a friend of mine for 10 years but no longer is. And, I realized that finding a new person to work with will really help me get to that next space that I am ready for. I have gained so much weight back in this last year, even though I was abstinent. It is possible to do. I never got back up to my all-time high of 385 pounds, but gained back a lot. So, all of it put together felt like it was a cement block sitting on my chest that I could not knock off for the life of me. I was rummaging around my blog and decided to put up links to my story on the right. It's for the person reading my blog who doesn't know my entire story (I mean, how does someone get up to 385 pounds anyway?), but it's mainly for me - to remember how incredibly far I have come. I am no longer that person I wrote about. In fact, at times, it feels like a lifetime ago.

Today is a new day. I went to a totally awesome service at my church last night and was revived, just as I am anytime I put my life in God's worthwhile hands. The power of God's love is so mighty and I pray I never forget that. I do need to study for an exam I have tomorrow night, but I also need to take care of myself so I commit to having sane, healthy meals today and going to an OA meeting. If you are a lurker or someone who regularly contacts me, thank you for your support and your prayers. Your walk on this journey of life with me means the world.