So this is too honest

I am here to say I am frustrated. I have one of my classes on Monday night and I really don't like going. I love the class ... I'm doing really well and look forward to it. But, the desk situation is making me feel so self-conscious. It's one of those combo desks and it is a very tight fit. The desk digs into my body and I have to recover for the rest of the night. It makes me want to go home and exercise the night away, but I have to not give in to that feeling. Brings up exercise bulimia feelings that I have experience before. I just need to say that I don't like the desk digging into my body and feeling like all eyes are on me.

To counter these feelings, I am here writing about it. I want the power taken out of this. So, I am not going to sleep with negativity in my heart. This is a work in progess and I totally get that. I am working so hard at accepting that in my soul.